There may be a million girls in your life but I know I mean more to you than all of them combined. Jealousy is a horrible thing I’m learning to get rid of.
If I’m such a disappointment to everyone, I should just leave. You won’t have to deal with a pathetic daughter like me anymore. I won’t be there to disappoint you. I won’t be there to make mistakes. I won’t be there to forget to do things for you. I won’t be a waste of space in your house.
One thing I love about my boyfriend. We don’t have to have sex for him to make me feel loved. All he has to do is hold me and sweep me off my feet with his wonderful poetic words because just his touch gives me butterflies. I love him so much. I can’t believe how much I miss him right after I just saw him. Our mini date today was well needed to reassure me that I truly can’t live without him and he means the world to me and my girls :)
May 18th
Took my Econ final :) think I did pretty well. Hopefully I passed
Went on a date with my boyfriend. Had lunch at Huey magoos then frozen yogurt at tutti fruti :)
Then we went to albertsons to get ayas birthday cake and something for kira. Then he had to leave :(
I missed him so much. I missed his warm hugs and his kisses still give me butterflies :) I love him so much
Then picked up the kids and kiana so we could go to the dentist. I have to get my wisdom tooth pulled out this summer :( I hope it doesn’t hurt.
Now grandmas making eggrolls and we are having a little celebration for my baby girl again lol
Who wouldn’t get upset if their sister said “she won’t die from getting slapped by a knife” and she’s referring to your two year old daughter?!
You expect me to laugh? What if she really did get slapped by that knife? She might have to go to the hospital and what do I say to them? Then who would get in trouble? Me! It could be child abuse or child neglect or anything cause she’s only two…..
I want…..
All I want to do right now is lay in your arms and cry all night long. I want you to hold me and tell me everything will be okay. I want you to wipe my tears away and say I’ll never have to cry again. I want you in my life. I want to be the one and only to make you smile. I want to be the reason why you live everyday. I just want you to love me.
This song continues to play over and over in my head. I sing this song to aya when we are alone because it makes me cry and she’s the only one who will hold me and wipe my tears away. She may only be two but she’s so smart and knows how to make her mommy smile. Idk if I could handle this without her.
Happy 2nd birthday baby girl. I know it was that great but I hope you like your gifts : childrens picnic table, coloring books and markets, fake washer and vacuum, and new clothes.
Happy 1month Kira. You also got new clothes.
My two girls are growing so fast. Idk how I’m going to do this alone but I have to try.
Song
There’s this song I fell inlove with about five years ago (before I ever even liked guys). Its a Thai song. It explains EXACTLY how I feel right now.
Basic translated lyrics:
People come in our lives everyday and you never think anything of it. Sometimes it’s just for a short while but long enough to leave an effect on you. When they leave, why do you still think of them. No matter what happens, they are all you think about. It feel like your still here, still here next to me in my heart. There’s never a day that I will forget you. No one can ever replace a person like you. Love is calling your name to bring you back to me. I don’t know when my life will end but I will always think of you until my last breathe on my last day.
This explains how I feel perfectly.
I miss him so much but I understand how he feels and what he’s going through even if he thinks I’m clueless.
